your dreams will be reduced down to breathing, and you will be grateful
The thing about not-being-a-person is:
They will say those people and the price of being a person is to nod and agree that yes, those people aren’t people at all.
They will have no idea who they are talking to.
You yourself will start to forget, too.
They will say a million small things that sow the seeds for violence done against you, and you will smile and let them.
You will do math, constantly.
How much do I want to be a person today? How much do I want this project to succeed? How much honesty can I afford? How much dishonesty will kill me? What is the cost of coming out? Is there a way to delay, soften, transmute? How long can I survive as half a person?
Ever since the world ended ... I don't go out as much.
People that I once befriended, just don't bother to stay in touch.
Things that used to seem so splendid, don't really matter today.
It's just as well the world ended -- it wasn't working anyway.
Your dreams will be reduced down to breathing.
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In a part of his brain that he seldom communicated with, but fortunately, was ultimately in charge, he knew that the only way he was going to be able to live and support himself would be to join the N...[Read More]
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Who ARE You, Really?
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Coincidentall...[Read More]
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